Too Big a Head

             Ay waw. Arrogant perverted freak. Threatening to quit his job if network doesn't fire one of his major detractors is truly befitting a big head whose accomplishments include giving away money on his noon-time show, all the while subjecting the contestants to ridicule. I've never been a fan of wowowee, I've never found it amusing, or funny even. I found myself feeling pity for the people on it, not because they're in dire need of the money, but because Willie makes it even hard for them to see beyond their situation. He makes them narrate their MMK-worthy stories and makes them cry on national TV. I'm not comfortable seeing that on TV, not my cup of tea. And then after telling their sad sad life stories, Willie makes them sing or dance and makes complete idiots out of them. The co-hosts don't help much too, the demeaning comments are coming and going, and the people on the show never notice it at all.

                                                  (Yes, that's for you, willie. A big X.)

              ABS-CBN has made an awful lot of mistakes already, they should do good with this one.

OTH Nostalgia

            I missed Lucas Scott. :( I missed by sleepless marathons. Elvy Abundo, thanks for lending me a copy of season 1 and making me believe in karma, in love, in waiting, and in the simple joys of life. It was my 3rd year in college when I started watching the wonderfully crafted episodes and crying after each one. They were really touching lives, folks. You can see yourself in one or two of the characters and for the struggles they face, you find yourself with them, but in your case the struggles are realities. You despise the villains so much that you beg for mercy from them, asking them to spare the protagonist, but you know too well that that's what they're made for, to make people's lives HELL-ish. What I love about the series, aside from the tear-jerking, true-love moments, are the literary excerpts at the beginning of each episode. But these add-ons seem to have diminished as the series progressed. I haven't noticed them in seasons 6 and 7 (of which 3 episodes I've watched). Nevertheless, it still never fails to tug at my heartstrings, making me laugh and cry at times.

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          I want to see seasons 1 to 6 again. Nathan-Haley, I've never once thought of your scenes as overly cheesy. Always and Forever is still the most endearing thing to say, at least for me. <3

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Playboy 69

  

            I went to Cubao yesterday because I want to have my plane tickets to Puerto Princesa refunded. It was wishful thinking, actually because I was fully aware of the possibility that the tickets are non-refundable since I booked the flights at promo prices. But since I will not be in Manila for the mid of May until end of July, I will not be enjoying the would-be wonderful Palawan experience. Haaaay. And I also needed money, that is why I wanted the refund badly. :((((( Lesson learned: Never book flights just because they're on sale. Book after you've decided you really want to go, even if the promo fares' not available anymore.

             

            So after a momentary depression, we got out the PAL ticketing office and went to Cubao Expo. It was my 2nd time to go there and I still am fascinated by the place. There are a lot of unique shops - bead shop, art gallery, bar, authentic italian resto, and of course, antique collectibles. I went on to buy a pair of earrings made of safety pins! Yes, folks, the ingenuity of these people, making earrings and fancy brooches out of the neglected pins. I love it! haha. 

            And then, I bought a 1969 issue of Playboy magazine. The content: SIMPLY AMAZING. The amount of information you could get from the mag makes you want to burp out of literary content and intellectual satisfaction. There are short stories, witty jokes and comics strip, an article about Gore Vidal (the great author, playwright, essayist and screenwriter), a spread about De Sade (a movie about the great Marquis de Sade and his sexual adventures and philosophy), and the Playboy forum (an interchange of ideas between reader and editor on subjects raised by the "Playboy Philosophy"). And it was surprising to know that professors write to Playboy expressing their appreciation because they use the magazine as reference material in their lectures. I mean, really, the ton of information one can absorb from it is really overwhelming. It was also interesting to note that some people also write to Playboy to express their grievances. One particular letter I have noted, reflected the harsh repercussions for the use/possession/selling of pot back in those days,

             "Having been convicted of selling five dollars' worth of marijuana seeds and stems to an informer, I am currently  serving a 20-30 year sentence in the state prison of Southern Michigan, near Jackson...

              ... I believe that my real crime was a column I wrote for a Detroit underground newspaper, The Warren Forrest Sun. The column was called "Dope-O-Scope" and in it I presented scientific facts about marijuana to counter the mythology circulated by the narcotics bureau."  ,   

Larry Belcher

                  And there are about 3 more letters documenting the complaints of the writer regarding the harsh treatment surrounding pot. These people write to Playboy as the magazine is a beacon of light in liberal thoughts and is a great informer to the people. And during those times when society limits the people, some of these people find comfort in Playboy. Wow, right. This makes me want to go find some more old issues and trace the evolution of the great magazine. Hugh Hefner is a genius!

and the 1969 issue : 269 pages of kick-ass substance! 

Note: "In an editorial in the December 1962 issue of Playboy magazine, Hugh M. Hefner wrote the first installment of what has become known as the Playboy Philosophy. While the study of sexuality and politics has taken a postmodern turn since the Playboy Philosophy was first promulgated, the Playboy Philosophy presents a manifesto on politics and governance that reflects a modern age vision. The Playboy Philosophy is premised on arguments about the fundamental nature of man, the inalienability of rights, the desirability of democracy, and a plea for the use of reason in convincing others to recognize the truths about humanity and governance. The modernist sensibility of the Playboy Philosophy is ironic since it was at one time a harbinger of sexual liberation. Yet in an age in which ideas about both sexuality and politics reflect a turn towards social constructions, notions of both sexual liberation and political liberty indicate new thinking about what constitutes individual and societal freedom."  <http://www.allacademic.com/meta/p317120_index.html>

Uncertainty

         

          You know the feeling after college graduation when you'd want to hit the books again because looking for a job and thinking of the future is so unnerving and unnatural? Well, I'm experiencing that now. I know very well that university life has trained me to survive in the real world but the difference between out there and inside the confines of the university is so startling, it makes you want to play it safe and bum around. 

        In college, I've learned that if I study well in an exam and do all my requirements, I should expect to have that subject aced (unless there's something wrong with the professor). Yes, the predictability of everything comforts me. College provides a sterile environment where karma never goes out of fashion. Outside college, however, you cannot expect the same predictability. Yes, the monotony is broken and everything seems more spontaneous. But spontaneous cannot always be a good thing. What if your boss just doesn't like you and even though you've worked hard as hell, he just wouldn't notice?! I mean, you have no control over what's going to happen unlike in college where you get to decide when to skip sleep if the situation (e.g. Midterms the next day) calls for it. You can't just drop a task (as opposed to a subject) when you don't feel like doing it anymore. And you can't simply ditch work days (as opposed to classes, depending on who's teaching) just because you want to stay in bed longer.

             Maybe my reasons are just plain shallow and overly immature. I'm just anxious and a bit afraid to be on my own. And I miss college already! :(

Perfume

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Wow! The film really got me in all uppity and then afterwards, depression. It was amazing and I can't wait to get hold of the book. It tells the story of Jean-Baptiste Grenouille who was an olfactory genius whose nose knows all the best smells in the world. Murdering virgins and preserving their scents (pheromones, basically) is no easy task. But driven by a great desire to preserve the fleeting smell of everything, Grenouille went on with his craft (making perfumes out of humans). His experience would later teach him that he could enslave the whole world if he wanted to but... "there was only one thing the perfume could not do. It could not turn him into a person who could love and be loved like everyone else. So, to hell with it he thought. To hell with the world. With the perfume. With himself." <sigh> What a tragedy. :(((((

Future

I had my pre-employment medical exam last thursday and I'm almost through with it if not for my poo(for the fecalysis) and my X-ray. I have to come back for the sample but that day should fall on my period para isang lakad na lang. I didn't actually know the reason why they're not allowing me to have my Xray taken just because my period was supposed to be due friday and I have to wait for it first. I thought about it, really. And it came to me that for the Xray to be taken, it has to be just me (and not with the baby, if I'm preggers, since it may result to some complications). So I'm still waiting for my period until now. And no, I'm not pregnant.

I just want to be done with all the pre-employment shit so I can start with my job already. I hope they tell us now   when we'll be starting at the site so I can prepare my farewells. Hinde yung sorpresa. Anxious but looking forward to my first day. I want to earn bucks really soon because I'm tired of this frugal living. It's stressing me out! :) 

Work during the day, then review at night (since the board exam's on August).Wish me luck!